Hana Haley: Part Two

http://nylonjuvenile.deviantart.com/

Go look at her gallery! She'll knock your socks off.
Also, she just did some work with Rosaline Crow. She is a model that I find extremely beautiful and hails from our very own Seattle, WA.
Ms. Crow's eyebrows are to die for.

A Dapper Date

I went shopping and spent $21.00 on this polka dotted dress from Target.

And $12.99 on this hat. (Also from Target.)
Interesting tidbit, this hat is constructed solely from paper...

Nick took me to Greater Years Park for our lunch picnic. It was a charming place, but rather small and shabby.

Those eyelashes? I got them from a small vintage shop in Portland. They are from the 60's and came in their original packaging.

I took pictures of Nick too, but he made Down's Syndrome faces and they weren't very palatable.

I feel that I look rather feisty and adventurous in this one.

Goodbye Greater Years Park.
I'll miss you.

Overtime

Today, I am working overtime. I learned many things this week.
A brief list:
1. Dayquil or "Daytime"(the cheap generic version) is best paired with Monster energy drinks.

2. Twelve hours passes very slowly when one is locked in a shed wearing lingerie.
I may add, being peered at by men who are either married to aging wives or who have no hope of being married to any wife.

3. Pulling weeds is not a restful pastime for a person's sole day off.

(However, Dayquil/Monster can be a great resource for pulling weeds on one's sole day off when that unfortunate person is suffering from an insidious disease/headcold.)

4. The sunrise is beautiful. One still hopes not to see it.

5. People/coworkers do not return kindnesses. Just because one sacrifices an entire Saturday to another, does not mean that the recipient of said Saturday will reciprocate favor.
Actually said person will refuse to come in for the paltry three hour shift that they were scheduled. Leaving you, sad overwrought employee to man the god damned place alone.
Don't be kind to these people. It gets you nowhere and they don't even appreciate it.

Yes these lessons and more.
Happy April folks.

Hana Haley

I visited Portland last weekend with my good friends. The reason for the trip was to meet up with some photographers that had contacted me for shoots.
I met Hana Haley, or (http://nylonjuvenile.deviantart.com/) and we collaborated on some awesome stuff.
She is such an inspiration. Her massive collection of cameras was impressive and her artistic vision even more so.
Here are some photos from our shoots:

A random conglomerate of photographs

Photoshoot with Miss Shepherd

Comfortably Numb

I crouch next to the poorly insulated door to my shed, searching for nothing on the vast internet. The cold creeps under and around the door, leaving me shivery and numb.
I can be more than this, right?
I mean, I'm more than halfway done with a novel. An interesting and thoughtful novel.
(In my opinion.)
I have written songs that rival ones I've heard on the radio. Lyrics that are haunting and well composed. (Also in my opinion.)
I've grown into a woman, no longer the ugly fashion retarded teenager of days past. I notice people watching me at school, and it isn't because I'm yelling, "Ewop!" or delivering candy hearts to a stranger, or skating around on cardboard, or hitting people with purses, or stealing frog testicles, or running around the football field smeared in fake blood.
I get jealous looks from girls and lustful ones from men. Believe me, it isn't my ego talking. I still don't have much of an ego.
It's strange to admit it, that I recognize my physical appeal. I've lived for so long afraid that my legs were swelling up and my stomach fat was exploding from my shirt. (Delusions, as I have never been overweight.) I lived my entire teenagerhood feeling either bland or hideous. But here I am, growing up. Realizing that I've been silly.
My father is turning my college account over to me. Cutting the cord. From here on out, I'm taking care of my tuition. He's giving me a lump sum to plan my wedding.
Next I'm getting kicked out of my rather small, but mostly free half a garage by the court.
So what's next? Rent? Car insurance? Phone bill? Mortgage?
Filling out my own taxes? Finally getting a job again?
I can't help myself, I'm terrified of growing up.
I don't want to get old and tired. I don't want to stop writing because I'm exhausted, because my "real" job is taking up the little energy that I have?
I'm a sloth.
I forget which deadly sin that is.
Deadly Sins that I am guilty of:
(And the demons associated with them)

1.Envy Leviathan

2.Sloth Belphegor

3.Lust Asmodeus

4.Pride Lucifer

5.Gluttony Beelzebub

At least I don't have a problem with wrath or greed.
Asmodeus is an interesting demon by the way. He loves Sarah, a human woman. He murders seven of her husbands before the marriages are consummated.
That's kind of romantic right?